The in laws. Gosh, sometimes I think I might honestly hate them. Bryan and I decided that the kids and I would not go to his sister's house for Thanksgiving dinner today. We have spent most of the last week at his parents house visiting with family. He had to work today and I didn't feel like driving for 2+ hours with his dad. So mil calls this morning and asks if Savanna can go. I said yes honestly expecting her to let Sam go, too. She didn't. I should have said no. I'm so mad at myself for saying if they both can't go, neither of them can go. Sam has been sobbing he is so upset. I so don't know how much longer I can deal with them. I am ready to quit going to family functions. I don't deserve to be treated this way and neither do my children.
My lower back is killing me. It hurts to sit, it hurts to stand, and it hurts to lay down. I think it can be blamed on the box spring problems we are having. When Sam was six months old we put our mattress on the floor because he was falling off the bed. My mom asked if she could borrow them until she bought new ones. At the time she had a king size mattress on queen size box springs. I agreed, I shouldn't have. I have been asking for them back for years. Especially when I was pregnant with Madalyn. Then she said she would give them back after she bought new ones, again. I gave up asking for awhile. I've been asking again and she keeps putting me off. The box springs we have are not a match. One if a bit higher than the other. It creates serious problems for my back, but most especially when I am pregnant. I'm in so much pain today, and Bryan is working, so I can't just rest. I'm really so frustrated with my mom.
I kinda stood up to my mom yesterday. She watched my kiddos while I went to my prenatal appointment. By the time I got back I had a huge sinus headache. When I got there I had to sit and listen to her and my sister fight (WHY do they think they can live together?). Then they gave me an outfit to try on Mady. As soon as I took her pants off she peed on the floor. She doesn't do real well when there are a bunch of people around, I don't know why, she just doesn't. So I was changing her and I was going to clean up the floor. My mom started yelling that she had just shampooed her carpets. Then she turned to Mady and still with her voice raised said she was going to start making Mady wear a diaper at her house. I just kinda snapped and snapped at her *Stop it! That doesn't help anything!* For those that know me well, I don't do this. I had raised my own voice, but I was so frustrated. She's two and a half, give me a break. It's not uncommon for a child her age to have accidents. Telling her she's going to have to wear diapers again is not something that helps. I left shortly thereafter. She can't understand why I got upset with her.
Jen tagged me with this. I don't have anyone else to tag, but I'll fill it out. .
8 things I'm passionate about:
1-My kids 2-My DH 3-knitting 4-reading 5-music 6-Did I mention knitting? 7-Sonic Cherry Vanilla Diet Dr Pepper with no ice and extra real cherries. 8-Having mommy time, whether it's by myself or with friends.
8 things I say often:
1-I meant to tell you, can't you read my mind yet? This is said to DH. 2-(insert child's name here) leave your brother/sister alone. 3-Do you have to go potty? 4-Did you pee in your panties? 5-Why did you pee in your panties? 6-What did you do at school today? 7-Can you make dinner tonight, pretty please. Said while I bat eyelashes. 8-I am so tired
8 books I've read recently:
1-The Giver 2-Gathering Blue 3-Messenger all by Lois Lowry 4-A Killer Stitch by Maggie Sefton 5-60,000+ baby names (why can't I find one?) 6-Savannah Blues by Mary Kay Andrews 7-Annie's Rainbow by Fern Michaels 8-Family Blessings by Fern Michaels
8 things I want to do before I die:
1- Vacation somewhere tropical 2-See all of my kids get married 3-Go on a mission with my husband 4-Start college 5-Build my dream house 6-Have a nice yarn stash 7-Instill a love of reading in each of my children 8-Meet some of my online friends.
8 songs I can listen to over and over again: 1-Something That We Do by Clint Black 2-Can't Help Falling In Love by Elvis (my wedding song) 3-Amazed by Lonestar 4-Whiskey Lullaby by Brad Paisley and Allison Krauss 5-I Thought She Knew by N'SYNC 6-HonkeyTonkBadonkadonk by Trace Adkins 7-Pour Some Sugar On Me by Def Leopard 8-What Hurts the Most by Rascal Flatts
8 things that attract me to my friends 1-Honesty 2-Compassion 3-Empathy 4-I just have to be able to talk to them 5-Loyalty 6-Humor 7-Non-Judgemental (I know we all are to some degree) 8-Love
8 things I learned in the last year: 1-It's worth it to make less money to have my husband home more often. 2-New friends can quickly become close friends and feel like you have been friends forever. 3-Hard decisions are made easier when children are threatened. 4-One night out a week makes mommy a much better mommy. 5-I am completely addicted to knitting. Why did I resist for so long? 6-No matter how sucky life seems, if you look hard enough you can find a blessing somewhere. 7-Sometimes disastrous things, turn our to be blessings. It's best to be patient and see how it goes. 8-Switching insurance companies sucks.
I hate when the kids are sick. Sam has an ear infection. He is absolutely miserable. The drainage is terrible and his coughing at night is like when he had croup. He literally cannot breathe. That was the scariest time ever and we're doing it again. Mady has a fever now, too. I'm so tired it's not even funny. Sam coughs and whines all night, Mady tosses and turns and whines all night. I just need some sleep.
On a brighter note, I had Sam's parent/teacher conference yesterday. His teacher is incredibly sweet. She kept talking about how incredibly smart he is. She said it amazes her the things he figures out. Things that most of the kids in the class don't. It was nice to hear. She also said that when she reads to them and then asks questions he's one of the only ones that can always give her an answer. We talked about his speech and she said she isn't sure if it's just from getting used to it, or that it's getting better, but she can understand him better. I brought up our question of holding him back from K a year, mostly because of his speech. She pointed out that he already has most of his skills needed for K. She said that the Speech Pathologist also remarks on how smart he is. She said his speech eval he had last month was similar to his first one, where he was very far ahead on his auditory comprehension (he was 3 years 3 months, but tested at 4 years 11 months). I have an IEP (individual education plan) meeting at his school next Wednesday. I will get the results of his evals there. Anyways, I got the impression that she didn't really think speech problems were a reason by themselves to not start K. I wish it wasn't so hard to make decisions.
Pray for me as I try to get Sam's medicine into him.
Here is my attempt to actually keep up with a blog. The last week has been pretty rough. Sam is sick. He has the yucky cough and he has had a fever. His fever is finally gone, but his cough is still here. He says he doesn't feel well enough to go to school. It's just preschool, so I'm not too worried about it, except that he's missing speech. Funny, he doesn't even know he has speech, he just thinks he goes to play games with Miss Davina. Whatever works. He says he doesn't like school, but he used to say he likes it. I don't know if he's just saying that because he isn't ready to go back or what.
Mady has gotten so mean lately. She has such a temper. She throws kicking and screaming tantrums. Right now I'm just trying to ignore them. Or I talk to her, but don't give in. Her biting has slowed down, but she is mean to Sam. I think she's just making up for when he was horrid to her, her first few years. Should i be worried? I don't know.
Savanna is wonderful, she has all A's and A+'s. Her teacher is awesome! I'm so glad she loves school.
Bryan is so busy right now. He works, has school, and church responsibilities, he doesn't have enough time in the day.
Me? I'm just tired. This pregnancy drains me. I don't feel sick unless I don't eat protein for breakfast. I just wish I wasn't so tired. The house is suffering, which makes Bry cranky, which makes me cranky. Almost second trimester, the tiredness is supposed to get better than right?